Dear Saul,

I don’t know what to say. You were a friend, you made me smile, you always gave me a bad time for not making it to the gym, you thought you were good at poker, but really I knew the truth. You were kind, you always gave everyone your undivided attention, you were one of the hardest workers I knew and yet you never made it seem like you were working… You were a father, a dreamer, you argued with me just so you could see me turn red and I hoped that some day I could get you to do the same. You were stubborn, but always willing to listen to both sides, you loved to laugh and you made me laugh. You made this place a better one every day. You were the first person I worked with on my very first day ever as a PA. You may never have known how scared I was that day, and then again maybe you did, but it was your confidence, your calm and reassuring demeanor that let me know things would be ok. I will never forget that.

I can not tell you Saul how much I will miss you, as I was driving home today it hit me that I would never see you again, and my eyes became heavy and I cried. And I tried to figure out why you did this, or what we could have done so that maybe you would have seen that you didn’t have to do this. But I know for these kinds of things there are no answers. And now as I write this letter too you and my eyes swell up again, I am reassured, knowing that you are in a better place, and that you will be loved and cherished as you should be. I just need to let you know that I will miss you and you will always hold a special place in my heart. Every time I drop a chart in this door with 10 vaccines in it I will be thinking of you, and your carefree way. Every time I walk in that gym I will be looking for your name on the sign up sheet hoping that maybe this was all just a bad dream. But life is just this way I guess and for some things there are just no reasons. Thank you for everything my friend and I guess I have no choice this time but to say goodbye, may you forever rest in peace…

Love,

Stephen