There are three kind of thoughts in this world, Thought of the Stomach, thoughts of the head and thoughts of the heart. This week I have experienced all three.

1. Thought’s of the head: Most start here for me, I think, It is when the mind contemplates the idea, it engulfs the question, it formulates the plan. When we are faced with questions in our lives it is in our head that they start. It hurts in the head, it is because it does not have all the resources to deal with the problem at hand. It is logical, systematic. it makes lists comparing our options, it contemplates, it obsesses, it caries the burden, and so this is where my suffering takes place; in the head. Sometimes my thoughts get trapped here, never making there way out to see the light of day, it is here where I make some of my worst decisions, not because they have not been thought out, they are completely “reasonable” and this is why they are not perfect they are formulated from reason, this may seem good, it is safe.

2. The Stomach: Anger, Reaction, Propulsion, Acid, Digestion, Expulsion… these are the words that define the stomach. They also define our most innate “gut reaction” it is possible this is where an idea or question begins it’s journey, and decisions made here will always be “unreasonable”. They have not been thought out, they are reactionary, they tumble upon themselves here in the stomach gaining momentum, I believe it is in the stomach that we formulate: hate, fear, jealousy, rage. Wars, hate crimes, vindictive thoughts and behaviors, come from here. When we are given bad news, when we are exposed to an unimaginable reality, often for me it is felt first here, deep inside my “gut”. It is here that I find my greatest sadness, where the acid that digests these thoughts eats away at my core, exposing the truth to be expelled without realization.

3. The Heart: Love, pure love, unconditional love, joy, fearlessness, compassion, Jesus, Buddha, Mohammad, Martin Luther King Jr. The Heart; The place where all great things truly take place. It is where all great thoughts start and end, they have journeyed here. When we think with our heart, we can not choose the wrong path. Because it is here where love comes from, and there is no wrong choice when we choose to see people for who they are, love each other, forgive, do not judge, work for the common good. It is here I find peace, in my heart, it is here where I feel overjoyed and filled with life, because I know with my mind and with my gut that the idea, this thought, this decision, this problem that I face has been solved with the purest of intentions.

I have made this journey. I have traveled the visceral path of decision making. I have ended here, in my heart, and I look back and know that my intentions are pure, from here my thoughts travel to their final place, God: I have yet to give it to him, probably because my mind has not allowed me to contemplate letting go. This is where the most difficult thought of all finds its place: FAITH!!!

PLEASE GIVE ME FAITH